I’m trying so hard to hold on to what friendship may still exist, but it just tears my heart apart seeing how happy you are able to be when I feel this terrible. I wish you could feel what I feel. All I needed was your love.
It hurts so badly when you give someone all of your effort and in the end, it’s just not good enough to keep them. I want to be your friend, but I’m worried that I might be too selfish to handle it. I’m trying my best, but I feel like such a fool for trusting anyone with something so fragile. This is what I was trying to protect myself from for so long.
Even after all of the things you’ve put me through, the only thing I want is you. I wish you wanted me, too.
